A month of nowhere
It is quite funny that I was writing a lot but now something changed, and things are going no where. I have no idea what happenend in last month, but I do know nothing happened.
I was diagnosed with ADHD, so that is something new. With everything slipping away from my fingers I have no clue on where to move from here onwards.
What should happen to life, where should we move to, how to move things and get things sorted out? These hit hard.
Turns out all these years of building an identity, a good grpahics programmer or something like that is now washed out due to AI.
As I adopt to the AI, I lose ownership, I lose identity but that is fine. It helps me work on grander projects and iterate faster. Only problem is that this creates a dependency on AI and will have to keep on using them.
Next problem is that we can't use these models without paying up. But question remains, is it worth paying up for? What am I paying up for?
How long will it be subsidized?
Back in the day, working on something hard and wasting time felt good because the result was learning to control a tech.
These days it feels weird .... back of the head there is a question, "Is it a productive use of my time?"
I rather play video games than work on learning X technology because AI can't experience what I experience inside the game but it sure can learn X technology faster than me and do the same job.
So as I adopt to AI, what I do is focus on the thinking and ideas. The cost of executing idea is effectively zero. But good ideas are hard to come by and require some systemic thinking that needs to be worked out.
It will be something worth considering about in the future.
Where are ideas originating? Where are inspirations? What about the journey when the destination can be reached immediately.